(309) – Welcoming The New Year of 2015


I couldn’t stop myself from posting a word tonight. It’s overwhelming to think of all the things we’ve been through the last year, good and bad. It started out quietly but things got serious in the middle as usual. I wanted to evaluate myself constantly because I had long list of resolutions for 2014. Well, I did not; I kept postponing until I fell back short and got busy with school.

I’ve met many new good friends who made me see the world through their eyes; few of them are pen-friends, others I had the blessing of meeting them in person. I could not reach my reading target, ignored my blog and did not save the amount of money I needed. Sadly, I did not reach all my goals but I’ve achieved and learnt many other things in return.

I would like to thank the dearest followers and bloggers for all the support I get on a daily basis. Thank you so much for reading my blogs and encouraging me with your kind helpful words.

I am still working on a plan for the New Year, not because it’s still new and everyone’s excited but that I really want and will make some great firm steps toward a better future this year and may the odds be ever after in our favor.

Happy New Year…

 

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(307) – Don’t Lose The Habit


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Yesterday, I was reading in my journal from the last couple of years and it was surprisingly awesome to recall all that I was going through during high school and the first two years at university.

My articles were full of grammatical mistakes, my hand writing was horrible but only the purity of it that made my day. Back then, I was doing my best to describe the moments precisely and try to let the reader feel what I was feeling without even knowing who I am. I probably failed because I could barely speak two words of English back then -Yes, I was writing in English- but for me, I can still live these memories and remind myself of the big leap I’ve come.

My point of writing journals was to never forget the nice moments and feelings we have and to always look back happily with a smile on my face because I’ve become a better person and I’m actually stepping forward toward a prosperous future. Moreover, my admiration for writing was always there but I couldn’t define it clearly until the last two years when I started focusing more on it.

Tonight, I did not know what to write, yet, I did not want to miss one more day waiting to be ready or inspired. Writing could be a habit; you’re just used to write every day, even if it’s a statement, a paragraph, or a long piece. The point is to keep writing no matter what.

(306) – Half A Life – Khalil Gibran


One of the best feelings is when you’re thinking of an idea and for some reason can’t put it into words. Last October, I met a new friend who made me do things I didn’t want to do, he made me experience severe emotional pain that I could do without. I wanted to stop meeting this person and step back but then it happened to me that I should go and see him again and try to fix the situation. I did not want to have half an experience, all I was thinking of is how to understand how and why things happened the way they did and how I could pick myself up and move on.

Today’s words of wisdom is about living half a life. You may need to read this over and over again to comprehend the real beauty of it or you may want to attach it to some old memories of yours bur be alert to give it some time and read slowly.

 

Do not love half lovers
Do not entertain half friends
Do not indulge in works of the half talented
Do not live half a life and do not die a half death
If you choose silence, then be silent
When you speak, do so until you are finished
Do not silence yourself to say something
And do not speak to be silent
If you accept, then express it bluntly
Do not mask it
If you refuse then be clear about it
for an ambiguous refusal
is but a weak acceptance
Do not accept half a solution
Do not believe half truths
Do not dream half a dream
Do not fantasize about half hopes
Half a drink will not quench your thirst
Half a meal will not satiate your hunger
Half the way will get you no where
Half an idea will bear you no results
Your other half is not the one you love
It is you in another time yet in the same space
It is you when you are not
Half a life is a life you didn’t live,
A word you have not said
A smile you postponed
A love you have not had
A friendship you did not know
To reach and not arrive
Work and not work
Attend only to be absent
What makes you a stranger to them closest to you
and they strangers to you
The half is a mere moment of inability
but you are able for you are not half a being
You are a whole that exists
to live a life not half a life

Khalil Gibran

(305) – It’s Fear Again


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The only definition of fear I used to know was fear of dark places, weird creatures like those in horror movies and anything out of this world, something we can’t see but feel. Well, reading opened my eyes to wider aspects of fear, that fear is not only a feeling you get when in dark places or during the night. You may experience it anytime during the day because it’s a feeling like any other one but what makes it special is its phenomenal power to control us and deviate us from the reason behind all that we feel which is fear itself.

Apparently, there’s nothing called negativity or depression. There’s nothing called “I can’t” or “I don’t want” it’s most likely fear; fear of facing the truth, the reality and change the current situation.

Last winter, I was seriously sick and couldn’t feel any better at meds. My doctor said it was only stress and that I have to relax. I used to search Google every night trying to diagnose myself and see what this thing I feel might be. I was afraid I’d get a heart attack and die, I was afraid I’d have cancer and I was afraid of too many things you can never think of. That made me change from the inside out; I became a completely different person showing only the good peaceful side of me, accepting whatever there is and never objected. My mom could feel the change, she didn’t like it. She knew it was temporary and that the soon I feel better I’ll be back to my old character and she was right. It was all fear; fear of death, fear of school, fear of facing my sickness and fear of the world in general because I refused the situation I was in.

One of the best techniques I remember reading about was giving your fear the space and see how weak it is. Well, you have no idea how true as well as right that statement is.

One day, I sat silently waiting for my fears to happen to me, I waited and waited but nothing showed up. I did repeat that over and over again, the result was always the same, silence. At that moment, I realized how powerful our fears can be IF only we give them the chance to control us. Some things are better be ignored and kept away from the mind; you don’t have to think much of your fears, just let it go. If it comes again, face it, speak up and show how powerful you are.

Fear is not only the rush of adrenaline in your body but every feeling of inconvenience and weakness. We don’t owe this world around us, it owes us because you’re adding to it.

Having said all that, I am pleased to admit that I’m afraid of my first final exam next Monday which is the reason behind this post. I don’t sleep well these days, thinking all the time of “what if” I get an F and have to spend 4 months more at college, God forbid, it’ll be the end of the world. LOL! But no, I am studying hard, I believe I am going to make it and graduate next month if God wills it. Trust me, this kind of self-talk does work most of the times!

(304) – Word Of The Day


Though I am feeling like writing a long blog tonight since there’s a lot going on on my mind but I still could not stop myself from posting this.

I don’t know why writing and reading are my best interests, I don’t even know when or how I started loving the idea of being a writer and or someone who’s best friends are the words but it sounds like fun, it sounds different and different is what we all like to be.

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(303) – Live Without Fear


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The other day I was at the shopping mall buying groceries and there was another man next to me asking about prices of some goods because it had no price tags. He had two options with two different prices and the two options were under the same manufacturer so he asked the guy in charge about the difference and the answer he got was that one product is class A, the other is class B. Well, it didn’t convince him, he wanted to know what’s the real difference because he was buying food so now he insisted on knowing the difference clearly because it cannot be the same with one more expensive than the other. A couple of people were around too started looking strangely at him because WE here in this country don’t object or inquire or ask or even comment…

It got me thinking whether the man was right or wrong; we all know that class A has a better quality than B but don’t really know the difference or points of weakness in whatever product it is, so the guy was right, I thought. Then it happened to me that we are not used to see people object here in this country because we are taken for granted, we have no rights, no freedom and whatever we get, we are always thankful for even if it’s our God-given right.

The same thing happens always at school; when the doctor asks if someone has an objection, nobody dares to raise a hand because you can’t object on what the doctor says or it’ll be taken personally with a big chance of winning an F by the end of the semester.

It’s difficult to live in fear, it’s hard to hide your emotions, feelings, opinions and not being able to express your thoughts freely. It’s impossible to avoid criticism and judgement all the time. Instead, you better know and choose HOW TO live that life of yours and get rewarded. I am not saying I know the answer. However, I’m getting to realize that we need to live smartly rather than just fearlessly. The first rule is that you are free and the land is yours; you are powerful and you are strong. You have an opinion and nothing to be afraid of. Things will most likely get harder at work as well as dealings with people and that’s where you should get to remember to act smartly. You should develop a skill to get your rights even in the most unfair situations; do not be neither shy nor afraid.

Things will always seem complicated until you take action…