(086) – Last Year’s Resolutions


This picture is taken from Singapore 2014, new year's celebrations

This picture is taken from Singapore 2014, new year’s celebrations

And here comes the day; Jan 1st, 2014 here and it’s time to unfold last year’s resolutions and read what I wrote exactly one year ago. I cannot remember how exactly I felt back then, but based on what I’m reading in my diary, apparently I was happy.

The year of 2013 was titled as the year of change and productivity for me; I had to make a change and start being productive, so one of my goals was to left up my GPA at university and I proudly could do it. I had many troubles; I almost gave in to my shadows but my family stood up next to me and we’d overcome countless problems together.

One thousand English words and eight books was my second goal for the year. Well, I have learned more than six hundred new words during 2013 and read nine books which is such a delight for me. Moreover, I wanted to save up my first JD 1000, I don’t have the money today because I’d paid for my university more than that amount of money.

On the family level, my sister got into university and now she’s majoring in Pharmacy. My elder brother is still trying to get a new job but his only motive is the salary which I think should never be his motive but I wish him luck and success anyhow.

My father and mother are in a good health and so is my youngest brother. We are all fine and happy together at home. On that, I have to thank God from the deepest of my heart and may 2014 bring us all happiness, contentment, peace, success, faith, hope and clarity. Happy new year, happy new blank year.

(085) – Say Good-bye to Your Past


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In the end of the movie, Walk The Line, it’s mentioned that Johnny Cash had continued his success for thirty five more years with his second wife and people became crazier about his music and adorable lyrics though they all knew he was an addict to drugs and cheated on his first wife, the one who loved him more than any other girl and sacrificed her life to be with him.

On his Facebook Page, Johnny Cash has nearly 12 M fans and that’s a small figure compared to the actual one. His music is still played in movies, bars, concerts and will continue to amuse us for good. The movie is just a glimpse about his life and I think you can imagine how hard it was for a famous musician and singer to be lonely amongst millions of fans, how bitter it was to be deprived of seeing his little two girls or even to see his brother dying before him.

His one and only thought, that saved him and his fame was forgiveness. The phenomenal JR had to forgive his past and walk on to do the things he loved. You might think it was easy or doable simply because he was famous and rich but you should take into consideration his free time, when he had to sit with himself even for a second and recall all the bad memories and deeds he’s done, the people he’s hurt and the wife he’s betrayed. That’s the real challenge and that is where true soldiers stand out.

If you could forgive your past, or forget your past, then you can move on and live. I’m not saying you that you can do whatever you want then forgive yourself, I’m talking about what destiny brings with it that obliges us to be someone else who we don’t recognize.

Bad things have been done to you, still you should be thankful. We live in the present; more glorious days are waiting ahead. Time heals, time teaches and time knows better than us. My demon isn’t giving up on me, so I let time to take care of it because I have a dream, “and I gotta protect it”

(084) – Apology


Dear Readers,

Lately, I’ve been very busy and confused; I couldn’t have the time to read your blogs, like your posts and comment on your inspirational writings.

Life could be very difficult, sometimes, where no matter how persistent and stubborn you are, it still could be able to drive you away from your consciousness and focus to somewhere else full of evil thoughts. Only there, you feel giving up is very normal and a choice that could be taken bravely, then to discover when it’s too late that you’ve missed your point.

I didn’t reckon things would be as bad; I neither see friends these days nor go out to take a deep fresh breath.

Honestly, I am missing WordPress, I am missing the genuine bloggers and the astounding writings I used to read here. I’d like you all to feel me pray for me. This blog is my future, I have to complete what I started eighty four days ago and that wouldn’t be true but with your support, encouragement and motivation.

Thanks for everyone who liked any of my posts and wrote a comment. I am very glad that some of you do like my writings and today I promise that things will change for better.

I am looking forward to check your wonderful blogs tomorrow and see what you guys are up to. Happy Holidayzzz J

(082) – Beautiful People DO Not Just Happen


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Yes, they don’t just happen, all these successful and amazing people we encounter every day have known and tasted the real meaning of suffering. It is bitterness and a longing for life that made them the way they are.

This little quote and hope I can see behind these words that push me every time to keep moving and being patient over this life’s turmoil. I haven’t chosen to major in mechanical engineering, yet, end up in a struggle to graduate but I’m pretty sure it’s meant to learn me something.

For the first time, I confess that the New Year is scaring me and I’m afraid of what it holds. When I think about the events and changes we’ve been through in the last year and I’ll have to live one more year with something I don’t like, it’s really scary and disappointing. May 2014 bring us success and comfort!

(081) – Unexpected Endings


For the last few years, I’ve been repeating the same sentence and still believe in it. The year does no longer feel like 365 days; it passes like a shot. I remember 10 years back when we celebrated the new years eve for the first time at my aunt’s house, it felt like we really lived a twelve months year but nowadays I can clearly remember what happened last year and the one before.

Here in my country, we spend our lives trying to get the least of our rights and I mean a decent house, a car, a wife and kids. It’s the least thing I believe anyone would aim for but in Arab countries, it’s your ultimate dream to get a house and live peacefully with your kids without being in debt for a bank.

Life is taking too much of us. The moment you solve a problem you get involved in too many others that would cost you your age and effort. For example, my dad and here I have to mention that I’m not a big fan of my dad but the truth remains is that he’s an expert man and professional in his work. He has lots of experience owing his job and knows much more than anyone in his field, yet, he still cannot stand up on his own two feet though his relatively high income; he has to pay for the apartment, car, tuition fees and daily expenses. Now, he’s 53 and still working hard. There are lots of similar cases; he’s not the only one. There might be something wrong with him or it is probably the entire situation of our country but I can obviously say, it’s not fair.

Years pass on and we don’t realize how much time we lose chasing the wrong things. personally, I don’t know what is the right thing or the wrong thing, I am trying to learn as much as I can and avoid others mistakes, I am a little afraid of this path especially that it’s vague but I’m going for it the whole way, it’s only one life; get busy living or busy dying.

(080) – Love/Fear


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I always say the same thing without realizing there’s a well-known quote to prove my theory. It’s either love or fear that motivate and empower us. I was once driven by love and I did. Yet, fear is my constant urge to keep moving on and on.

I hope the quote is enough to convey my message! Merry Christmas my dear readers, I hope you enjoy your day. 🙂

(079) – Human Touch Is Truly Missed


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The internet and the social networks particularly made the world a smaller place to be in; everything we need from information to whatever our mind comes up with is available and could be easily reached. However, the world became a lonely place though the unlimited number of friends we have on Facebook or followers on Twitter because the human touch is truly missed and lost. There’s no one really to feel you or give a kiss upon your cheek when you’d really need someone from another world, someone who knows exactly how it feels because they’ve been through the same moments.

I am very selective when it comes to my friends; I don’t like to friend anyone because as most of you know I’m looking out for progress and well-educated persons, those are the kind of people I feel attracted to. I have no clear sense of why but I just get high on sophistication and knowledge, it sort of helps me feel free and only free men can negotiate.

On the web, I could find many real friends who share with me the same exact interests and passion. They feel me and can relate to what I say or feel. They are real because they want the same thing I do; they want true friends and unconditional love, no cheating, no playing. We were able to know more about each other and sometimes the smallest details about our previous relationships and personal issues. The problem is that it’s all still online; we cannot have a cup of coffee together or walk on the beach, we cannot hug or give a rub on the shoulder. There’s no human touch but sympathy and compassion.

Moving to real life, you think it could be easier or at least “doable” but it’s not. Every day we see a thousand faces and speak to hundreds of people but nobody seems to really feel you or appreciate who you feel. Rarely ever, we end up with a close friend or a lover but things just don’t work out the way we imagine it…

Today, I’m fed up with the locals; I’ve tried so many times to strengthen my social bonds and make new worthy friends but it was such a useless time. Accordingly, I decided to behave nicely to everyone I see or talk to, even if I’m not interested, they might be or I could be able to help in another way.

It feels so lonely and depressing, to know that someone is waiting for you on the other side of the world but I cannot waste my time betting on uncertainty. It’s said “life’s full of adventures and always has something good held up in the sky, I haven’t seen it yet”.

(078) – Am I giving up on you, darling?


“You see, the great gift we give others is the permission to change us. Please, enter my world, leave me bettered, leave me smarter, leave me more alive, but above all, change me. History is about how we change. History is about why we change. History is about what happens when we don’t, when we resist.” –The Heights, Peter Hedges–

 You entered my life and changed me. You made a better, a smarter and even more determined character out of me. You helped me being everything I wanted at some point in my life. We had fun and enjoyed each other’s company. The time we spent together will be kept in our minds until the last exhale. The time we spent thinking it’d be eternal is now history; we’ve both changed and become different persons. I know you still love me and I do you even more but this world with its burden is increasing the pressure on you and me.

Change has taken its place; we no longer can be together as much. I’ve been trying to evolve or adapt, to find a solution but it’s taking pieces of me. I want the old days to remain as they used to be; fun, laughter, care and pure love but you have your own commitments and I have dreams and passion to pursue. I hope we can achieve more together and be the successful dudes we always dreamt of but I have no idea. My thinking process stops at this point; I cannot imagine what it’s next. No matter how similar we look and we really are, yet our dreams and plans are way different.

Perhaps, we are meant to meet after a while or a turnaround in events is yet to happen, who knows?! Maybe it’s just a temporary phase or we’re envied for this love and fondness we have for each other? Don’t think it’s easy for me to write such a blog or confess this truth but I’d rather admit it and alter my direction before it’s too late.

Sometimes, I wonder why you weren’t exactly like me, or why you didn’t change to be like me so we can forever be together. But I respond to myself saying, “Had you been someone else, we would’ve never become those pretty dudes”.

Nevertheless, still I see charm in your eyes, hear melody in your voice and feel warmth in your hug… forgive me; I didn’t mean to hurt you!

(077) – Only Time – Enya


Please, I’d love you all to listen to the song, it’s terrific!!!
Who can say where the road goes
Where the day flows, only time
And who can say if your love grows
As your heart chose, only timeWho can say why your heart sighs
As your love flies, only time
And who can say why your heart cries
When your love lies, only time

Who can say when the roads meet
That love might be in your heart
And who can say when the day sleeps
If the night keeps all your heart
Night keeps all your heart

Who can say if your love grows
As your heart chose
– Only time
And who can say where the road goes
Where the day flows, only time

Who knows? Only time